MEMORY (The MUSEUM of ART, Kochi 1999/3)
The word "senior
power" has recently become the subject of our conversation.
I can't help
feeling it my own matter, now that I am getting forgetful and in poor condition.
I feel daily
that senility is advancing slowly but steadily.
However, I think
"senior power" fundamentally means the power to live being natural to ourselves.
To accept ourselves
as we are affirmatively is the first step to it.
It begins with
accepting ourselves, who are weak or miserable, as nothing but our real
thing.
And it is important
to get free of the way of thinking that "we must do that" which has bound
us so far.
I believe it
gives us an unstrained start with anything, if we have a plan to do what
we really want to do or spend time comfortably.
We have continued
running so earnestly without looking around in the latter half of the 20th
Century.
And when we
casually look back, we are made to realize that here is abundance materially
only.
We are confused
surrounded by a plenty of things with our heart dissatisfied feeling something
missing.
I think now
is the time for facing what it is that we really look for.
Being young
gives us an illusion that we are full of possibilities and limitless in
ourselves.
But we are made
to face ourselves as we are, whether we like it or not, by adding to our
age yearly and surely.
It seems to
me relating to happiness in the latter half of our life from now on how
positively we accept this fact.
I would like
to return to the principle of the way of thinking that "I am myself".